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Have a good show.
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...rock 'n' roll's definitive
crazy person.
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Ozzy Osbourne, who is known
for biting the heads off of bats...
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Hey, he's twisted,
but he's all right, man.
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Here's another scientific mystery
that's stumping scientists.
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How is Ozzy Osbourne still alive
after decades of drugs and alcohol?
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- Fuck...
- Happy birthday.
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Well, we made it, Bill.
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Good to see you, good to see you!
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- It's nice to see you, too.
- It's good to see you, man.
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We fucking made it.
I never thought that.
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- You look great, you look great.
- I do.
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Nice smile. Come on.
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Ozzy, smile! It's your birthday,
with your family.
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I don't feel like fucking smiling.
Shut the fuck up!
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Come on, smile. It's your birthday.
There we go.
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Come on.
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Looking back, I should've died
a thousand times, but I never did.
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I never thought
I'd make it to fucking 40.
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Because by 12:00, in the old days,
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I'd have powder up my nose,
fucking shit in my veins,
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and all kinds of stuff.
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All right, one, two, three.
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Nice smile, ladies,
come with your brother.
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There's one or two ways
to get in this world,
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there's so many fucked up ways
to go out.
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Once you're dead, you're gone.
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I'm just a very fortunate man
to be still here,
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talking to you about my life.
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- One, two, three.
- He's too short.
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- Louis, smile.
- I am smiling.
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I've had a crazy life
and it ain't over yet.
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I was born John Michael Osbourne,
December 3, 1948.
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I was raised in Aston,
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a working class suburb
of Birmingham, England.
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A lot of the city was destroyed
by the Germans in World War II.
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I used to play
on a bombed building site,
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thinking it was a place
that you go and play,
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not realising it was a building
that had been bombed in the war.
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That's my grandma, my mother
and Gillian, my sister's there.
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I've got three sisters.
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My sister Jean, my sister Iris,
and my sister Gillian.
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We're a working-class family.
There wasn't a lot of money about.
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We lived in a small, terraced house.
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Six children had to share
the same bedroom.
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We were the poorest kids of the
street, there's no doubt about it.
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I didn't come from fucking royalty.
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I didn't come from a middle-class
or upper-class background.
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Where I came from was like,
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very bottom end of the scale.
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We were all from the same area
in Birmingham in England.
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It's very much a working-class area.
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I don't think any of us had hot water
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or indoor toilets,
or things like that.
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My mother and father.
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He was a good guy, you know.
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He worked hard all his life.
Would never miss a day from work.
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If he ever missed a day,
you knew he was fucked.
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He used to work nights at a factory.
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John used to go out and have a drink,
get in fights and that was it.
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From what I saw of John, he was
always in and out of trouble.
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Dad was always telling him off.
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And one day Dad says,
"You'll either get killed,
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"or die one way or the other,"
you know what I mean?
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A lot of the kids turned to crime
and I did for a time as well,
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but I wasn't really good at it.
I didn't want to do it, really.
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"John Michael Osbourne.
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"Age, 18.
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"Break and enter to the shop
of Clara Sharpe
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"and steal two coats,
20 pairs of stockings.
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"Fined 20 quid."
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To cut a long story short,
the police come round,
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says to Mr Osbourne,
"Does John Osbourne live here?"
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And our dad says,
"There he is. Take him."
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I got locked up in Winson Green
Prison for about six weeks.
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When I eventually got out of prison,
life still felt hopeless for me.
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I'd let my family down
for being arrested.
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I had no idea what I wanted to do.
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Really, there were about three or
four choices when we were teenagers.
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One was, we would either
probably go to prison,
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or go in the factories,
or go in the army.
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I remember being in a factory
and one guy,
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I'd say to him, "How long have you
been working here?"
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And he'd go,
"Thirty-five years this year,
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"and I'm retiring,
and I'll get a gold watch."
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I thought, "Fucking gold watch?
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"Thirty-five years of your life
have been in this fucking factory."
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I just couldn't handle it, you know.
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I had job after job after job.
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I could never hold a job down,
didn't want to.
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I used to think, "Fuck this!
Is this me for the rest of my life?"
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John wanted things
which he couldn't have.
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There was something inside him
that wanted to get out.
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Nothing really happened to me in
my life until the Beatles happened.
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Then it was like someone had turned
the world on for me.
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They played She Loves You
on the radio
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and I remember thinking to myself,
"Fucking hell, this is incredible!"
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From that moment on,
when I first heard She Loves You,
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I knew I wanted to be a rock star
for the rest of my life.
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Come on, everybody!
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You are number one!
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Thank you, good night!
God bless you all!
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This is adrenalin from the gig.
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Hello, is Sharon about?
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Just tell her
the gig was phenomenal.
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And the crowd, fucking unbelievable!
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It's fucking undescribable.
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It's like a divine experience,
you know.
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All right, I'll call back.
I'll speak to you later, bye.
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I'm lucky. I'm 60 years of age.
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I'm still travelling
all over the world.
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I'm still doing gigs
and people still want to see me.
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- Ozzy! Ozzy!
- Ozzy! Ozzy!
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It's Ozzy night, man.
It's night of the living dead.
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I've been fucking listening to him
since I was nine, 10.
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Yeah, man, I got those ones.
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I got that one and I got that one.
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A big Black Sabbath cross on my leg.
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- Number one Ozzy fan.
- Oh, yeah?
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Since Black Sabbath days.
Check this out.
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Fucking love him, man.
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Right here...
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Can you bend down?
Can you crouch down a little bit?
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You all right?
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I remember
when I was a fan of the Beatles,
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I had my fantasies...
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And if it's gonna make somebody's
day a little bit better to say,
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"Wow! I met Ozzy Osbourne today,"
I mean, that's my job, you know.
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- Can you get this please?
- Sure.
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Just right down there.
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Sharon goes to me, "You get back
there and sign that autograph!"
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I go, "What do you mean, my darling?"
She says, "Well, one day, if they
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"don't ask you for your autograph,
that's when we got a problem."
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Just check out my shirt.
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And I figure you can't fuck it up
no more than President Bush.
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I have something for you,
here's your own.
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- Thank you.
- Thank you.
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I'll go down the road. Now, if I get
recognised, I get pissed off,
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but at the same time, if I don't
get recognised, I get pissed off.
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People recognised me
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for a lot of years,
and for a lot of different reasons.
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And I just want my audience to know
that I will not abandon them
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to become the fucking weatherman.
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Wonder how many signatures
you've signed?
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Sabbath was monumental.
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A huge influence on Metallica.
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Black Sabbath was a big deal for me.
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Man, we worshipped those records.
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They were like pioneers
on so many levels, you know.
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Doing new things with rhythm, doing
new things with musical interaction.
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I mean, listening to it now,
it doesn't sound that crazy at all,
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but then, it was quite off the wall.
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My very first memory of Black
Sabbath, I just remember doing...
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I was like, "Oh, my God!
This is insane!"
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Thank you very much.
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Before Black Sabbath, I was in a band
with Tony lommi and Geezer.
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What was next needed, really,
was a singer.
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So we went to this music shop
in Birmingham
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where all the musicians
used to hang out.
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Ozzy had put this little calling card
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in a music shop called
Jones and Crossland,
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and he'd written,
"Ozzy Zig needs a gig."
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First time I ever met Ozzy
was at school.
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He was, like, for want
of a better word, a nuisance.
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And so when Bill and I
walked up to Ozzy's door,
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I saw him in the back room,
walking in.
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And I said to Bill, "Forget it."
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I just thought,
"This is gonna be a joke."
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Ozzy wrote the magic words,
"has his own PA,"
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because nobody could afford
PAs back then.
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If he sang and had a PA, he got the
job. We didn't even have to hear him.
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Although money was very scarce
in the household,
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I asked my father
to buy me a PA system.
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It was the best gift I ever had
'cause had he not got that PA for me,
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I don't think I'd have ever
got a gig, you know.
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The first time we got together
went down great and...
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No, it was good.
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In the early days, it was just
fucking guys having a blast.
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You know, if we'd never have made
anything of ourselves,
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it was a good time for me
just to be around a bunch of guys
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with fuck all to lose and everything
to gain. It was great.
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We used to rehearse across the street
from a movie theatre
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and I think it was Tony who said,
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"How weird that people
go to movies to get scared.
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"Why don't we start
doing scary music?"
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And that's how the beginnings
of Sabbath started.
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And when we used to play
that song live in the early days,
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kids would just fucking scream
and run out.
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And we started getting invites
to fucking Black Masses
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and fucking Highgate Cemetery
at fucking 12:00.
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And we go, "Is this for real?"
We never thought it was real.
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In life, we know about
the dark side and the light side,
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the good side and the bad side,
and I think
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that's probably the attraction,
is that it hadn't been dealt with
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till the Black Sabbath
started dealing with it.
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And people go, "Oh, yeah.
This is great. Well cool."
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It's like the attraction of Dracula
or vampires.
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It's a rich source
for exploration, I would think.
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What happened with Sabbath...
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For instance,
Black Sabbath One, the first album,
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we recorded that in 12 hours,
believe it or not.
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The whole thing was done in 12 hours
on an eight-track machine
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in a little backstreet studio
in London.
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It cost, like, 10 bucks to make
or something.
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It was one of the biggest-selling
albums I ever did.
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The manager comes up to me
and he goes,
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"Your album's going in the chart
next week at number 17."
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I said, "Fuck off! You're joking.
You're winding me up."
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"No!"
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When I got my first record royalty
advance in money,
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I got 105 pounds,
which is about $220.
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I went and bought myself
some shoes and some socks,
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some patterned trousers,
and a bottle of Brut cologne.
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I always liked to smell nice.
I used to stink.
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Coming along from having nothing,
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literally fucking zero,
no socks on my feet,
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walking around in fucking
open sandals in the winter,
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that's, from that to a pair
of fucking socks and shoes, big time.
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Then the next one,
Paranoid, comes out.
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The song Paranoid
went up the English charts.
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The album went straight in
at number one in England.
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It was like, "Fucking hell!"
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That was our second album,
we got a number one album.
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And we're going,
"Fucking hell, man!"
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The real rock star vibe,
you know, hit us.
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This is the first one I ever got.
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Gold disc from...
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It fucking spelt my name
"O-S-S-l-E", which is fucking great.
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But those early days
were fucking fantastic.
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We all had a laugh, we'd fuck around.
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We'd fucking smoke dope,
drink beer, you know.
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Going around with him
was a total adventure.
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00:23:03,872 --> 00:23:05,931
We never knew
what was going to happen.
234
00:23:06,008 --> 00:23:08,033
Ozzy would often
walk into a room naked.
235
00:23:10,446 --> 00:23:13,074
In the early days,
he was absolute bedlam.
236
00:23:13,382 --> 00:23:16,476
Me and Ozz were like a wrecking crew
in the hotel room,
237
00:23:16,552 --> 00:23:20,318
so we'd dismantle
the bathroom completely.
238
00:23:20,389 --> 00:23:24,155
Just big sledgehammers,
the toilet, sink, all gone.
239
00:23:24,260 --> 00:23:26,455
Put it outside,
everything goes outside.
240
00:23:26,562 --> 00:23:28,257
I remember I got a picture early on
241
00:23:28,330 --> 00:23:30,264
of him setting fire
to Bill Ward's beard.
242
00:23:31,066 --> 00:23:33,557
And Ozzy would be laughing
and Bill would just sit there.
243
00:23:34,637 --> 00:23:37,333
Growing up,
Ozzy was a real prankster,
244
00:23:37,406 --> 00:23:40,637
but especially in his 20s
with Sabbath,
245
00:23:40,809 --> 00:23:42,970
he was like the band clown.
246
00:23:43,045 --> 00:23:46,242
He got everyone going, laughing.
247
00:23:48,150 --> 00:23:50,846
He did that
because that was his shield.
248
00:23:51,320 --> 00:23:54,084
That protected his insecurities.
249
00:23:55,491 --> 00:23:57,652
Ozzy had low self-worth.
250
00:23:57,726 --> 00:24:01,457
He always considered himself
less than.
251
00:24:01,530 --> 00:24:06,194
That's how he survived everything,
was just being the prankster.
252
00:24:06,702 --> 00:24:08,863
What do you do to relax?
253
00:24:12,675 --> 00:24:14,199
You were joking when
you said that, of course?
254
00:24:14,276 --> 00:24:16,267
Yeah, right.
255
00:24:17,913 --> 00:24:22,612
With the success of the albums
came more money,
256
00:24:22,751 --> 00:24:26,414
which enabled us to buy
a better class of drug, basically.
257
00:24:26,989 --> 00:24:30,220
Which is basically what we were
all doing it for, at the time.
258
00:24:31,460 --> 00:24:34,725
Cocaine, acid and stuff like that.
259
00:24:36,065 --> 00:24:39,694
This is a good old cocaine shot,
we were all fucked up on these.
260
00:24:40,035 --> 00:24:42,094
If you look at the face,
when you do cocaine,
261
00:24:42,171 --> 00:24:44,799
you just lose
all expression in your face.
262
00:24:52,715 --> 00:24:56,378
We did the album, Volume 4,
and we'd been in Los Angeles
263
00:24:56,452 --> 00:24:58,443
recording that
for about three months.
264
00:24:58,821 --> 00:25:03,724
We used to have cereal boxes
of cocaine delivered to the house.
265
00:25:04,126 --> 00:25:07,892
We'd just tip it into this big bowl
and so we go...
266
00:25:07,963 --> 00:25:09,828
A bit like Scarface kind of thing.
267
00:25:11,600 --> 00:25:14,797
For a while,
we used LSD before we played.
268
00:25:14,970 --> 00:25:17,871
And so we would go on stage,
you know, tripping.
269
00:25:21,977 --> 00:25:24,969
Come on! Let's have a party!
270
00:26:22,337 --> 00:26:26,740
I was young, I had money,
I had cars, I had a fucking house.
271
00:26:27,409 --> 00:26:30,469
I was fucking king of the world
at fucking 22.
272
00:26:40,088 --> 00:26:42,079
Thank you very much!
273
00:26:49,298 --> 00:26:52,028
Thank you. We'll see you again soon!
274
00:26:58,340 --> 00:27:01,969
Shortly after we all became
successful with Black Sabbath,
275
00:27:02,044 --> 00:27:03,534
I met Thelma in a night club.
276
00:27:05,380 --> 00:27:09,248
Then we got married and we had
two children, Jessica and Louis.
277
00:27:13,989 --> 00:27:16,082
And this is a picture of my parents.
278
00:27:16,391 --> 00:27:19,224
That was actually
at the Hilton Hotel in Las Vegas.
279
00:27:24,066 --> 00:27:28,833
Some lovely ones, him looking
very young and handsome and sultry.
280
00:27:31,006 --> 00:27:32,564
These are nice ones.
281
00:27:33,075 --> 00:27:36,533
Before we had our house decorated,
so this must have been very early.
282
00:27:36,612 --> 00:27:37,977
- 1972.
- 1972.
283
00:27:38,580 --> 00:27:41,572
Got a Black Sabbath sticker
on the telephone.
284
00:27:42,618 --> 00:27:44,677
My recollection
from my childhood with Dad
285
00:27:44,753 --> 00:27:48,086
is that he'd be away
for very long periods of time,
286
00:27:48,423 --> 00:27:52,086
and there would always be a period
of adjustment when he came home,
287
00:27:52,160 --> 00:27:55,823
and then it would get to normality,
and then he'd go again.
288
00:27:55,898 --> 00:27:58,059
So it was a very
erratic childhood with Dad.
289
00:27:59,134 --> 00:28:01,159
Dad got into the local newspaper
290
00:28:01,236 --> 00:28:03,932
for the prized green beans
that he had grown.
291
00:28:04,006 --> 00:28:06,133
That's a nice picture of the house
and of our vegetable garden.
292
00:28:06,875 --> 00:28:09,105
He was always
a very big social drinker,
293
00:28:09,177 --> 00:28:11,407
so the pubs in the villages
where we all grew up
294
00:28:11,480 --> 00:28:15,177
were a very big part of the social
scene, so he would go to the pub.
295
00:28:20,522 --> 00:28:24,891
The only thing in English countryside
really back then was pubs.
296
00:28:25,494 --> 00:28:27,724
I'd go, "There's a pub there,
the house is just down the road.
297
00:28:27,796 --> 00:28:29,730
"Idea. I haven't got
a driving licence.
298
00:28:29,798 --> 00:28:31,789
"For one, I can walk
to the pub and back!"
299
00:28:31,867 --> 00:28:34,927
My idea of going for a drink
was to go to a pub,
300
00:28:35,003 --> 00:28:37,528
get as much poured
down my neck as I could
301
00:28:37,606 --> 00:28:39,836
and stumble out.
That was my idea of a drink.
302
00:28:39,908 --> 00:28:42,706
When he was around and he wasn't
pissed, he was a great father.
303
00:28:43,111 --> 00:28:45,136
But that was seldom, really.
304
00:28:45,213 --> 00:28:47,738
I just have a lot of memories
of him being drunk.
305
00:28:47,916 --> 00:28:50,908
Fucking just random shit, you know.
Fucking driving cars across fields,
306
00:28:50,986 --> 00:28:53,853
and crashing them in the middle
of the night and stuff like that.
307
00:28:53,956 --> 00:28:56,356
It's not good for family life,
really, you know.
308
00:28:58,627 --> 00:29:03,064
When you drink alcohol and someone
goes, "Dad, help me do this math."
309
00:29:03,131 --> 00:29:06,123
You go, "What the fuck you even
bothering me for?"
310
00:29:06,368 --> 00:29:09,860
It just gets a big ugly scene,
but that's the way your life becomes.
311
00:29:10,205 --> 00:29:14,608
I don't remember being put to bed or
a bath or that kind of thing by Dad.
312
00:29:15,477 --> 00:29:17,502
I wouldn't say
he was there for us, no.
313
00:29:17,579 --> 00:29:21,811
Never on a sports day,
a school trip, a parents' evening.
314
00:29:21,883 --> 00:29:23,874
He wasn't like that, no.
315
00:29:23,952 --> 00:29:25,749
It just pissed me off that
Dad never remembered my birthday.
316
00:29:25,821 --> 00:29:28,551
Just a fucking phone call
to say, "Happy birthday, Lou."
317
00:29:28,624 --> 00:29:31,923
Just make me happy. That's all I
wanted but he couldn't remember that.
318
00:29:32,628 --> 00:29:34,653
- When was Jessica born?
- Sorry?
319
00:29:34,730 --> 00:29:38,723
- When was Jess born?
- I think '71, '72.
320
00:29:41,303 --> 00:29:43,396
Maybe before.
321
00:29:43,472 --> 00:29:46,066
I don't really know.
I'll find out for you.
322
00:29:50,679 --> 00:29:53,147
Do you think he was a good parent?
323
00:29:54,249 --> 00:29:55,807
No.
324
00:29:58,620 --> 00:30:01,145
I did the best I could
in the situation at home.
325
00:30:01,223 --> 00:30:03,555
I was fucking 22.
326
00:30:03,925 --> 00:30:06,655
I mean, people knew who I was.
327
00:30:06,928 --> 00:30:11,661
I could drive the fucking Mercedes,
fly on Concorde to New York,
328
00:30:11,733 --> 00:30:15,134
fucking first class seat,
and stay at a nice hotel.
329
00:30:15,470 --> 00:30:17,995
You know, I mean, I was a rock star.
330
00:30:18,306 --> 00:30:21,036
And when you become
a successful rock star,
331
00:30:21,109 --> 00:30:22,508
they don't give you
a handbook and say,
332
00:30:22,577 --> 00:30:24,602
"You should learn these rules.
This is what you got to stick by."
333
00:30:24,680 --> 00:30:27,308
It's the fucking world.
You're young, you got money,
334
00:30:27,482 --> 00:30:30,747
you're successful,
chicks want to be seen with you.
335
00:30:31,787 --> 00:30:34,119
What more can you say, you know?
336
00:30:52,007 --> 00:30:55,204
It's just probably stress or anxiety.
337
00:30:55,944 --> 00:30:59,778
I don't know. I'm not anxious.
I'm feeling okay.
338
00:31:00,549 --> 00:31:04,747
Well, you've told me before that you
get a bit wound up at the gigs.
339
00:31:05,053 --> 00:31:08,113
The last time was great.
That's why I'm doing it, you know.
340
00:31:08,356 --> 00:31:10,756
I'm not wound up at all.
341
00:31:13,295 --> 00:31:18,392
Okay, there, Ozzy. Here we go.
Now give me... M-U-H-M.
342
00:31:23,338 --> 00:31:24,805
Now, we're gonna give you the...
343
00:31:26,007 --> 00:31:29,067
Slightly hooty...
And do the long one, and say...
344
00:31:34,950 --> 00:31:38,442
Now, Ozz, give me a plain old...
And same thing, say...
345
00:31:46,862 --> 00:31:50,127
Okay, I'm gonna give you
the chance to rest for a little bit,
346
00:31:50,298 --> 00:31:52,459
and then we'll start again.
347
00:31:53,735 --> 00:31:57,933
I love my job, you know.
I'm very fucking passionate about it.
348
00:31:58,006 --> 00:32:01,533
When I can't give a good show,
I get pissed off about it, you know.
349
00:32:01,943 --> 00:32:07,381
When I can't do my job...
I suffer from terminal perfectionism.
350
00:32:07,816 --> 00:32:10,717
I'm just gonna flip-flop Bark At
The Moon with Suicide Solution,
351
00:32:11,987 --> 00:32:14,455
Crazy Train,
and leave it as the old set.
352
00:32:14,856 --> 00:32:19,054
Yeah, I mean, if you want...
353
00:32:19,361 --> 00:32:23,388
We can do Fire in the Sky,
'cause that's more for you to sing.
354
00:32:23,632 --> 00:32:26,624
Yeah, but I'll know
when I get there, you know.
355
00:32:26,701 --> 00:32:28,760
Exactly. You know, right?
356
00:32:29,070 --> 00:32:31,766
I'm not gonna fucking do
all this shit, all right, man?
357
00:32:34,643 --> 00:32:36,133
I mean, we're gonna
go over everything,
358
00:32:36,211 --> 00:32:38,873
we'll be here till fucking midnight,
going over all this shit.
359
00:32:38,947 --> 00:32:40,175
We got here a little while ago.
360
00:32:40,248 --> 00:32:41,977
We'll just keep going
till we get it right.
361
00:32:42,050 --> 00:32:43,108
All right.
362
00:33:21,056 --> 00:33:24,856
Not every night I'm great, not
every night I'm half great sometimes.
363
00:33:24,926 --> 00:33:26,894
I'm terrible if my voice goes out,
364
00:33:26,995 --> 00:33:29,486
like everybody else is,
but the show goes on.
365
00:33:41,076 --> 00:33:42,065
Yes, sir.
366
00:33:44,980 --> 00:33:46,641
If I can't get it to...
367
00:33:49,718 --> 00:33:51,743
Fucking... I'm deaf.
368
00:33:51,820 --> 00:33:55,085
Next year I'll be, like,
on fucking Braille, man.
369
00:34:18,813 --> 00:34:19,939
Hey.
370
00:34:27,289 --> 00:34:29,587
You're so tired, that's why.
371
00:34:31,226 --> 00:34:34,559
I first met Ozzy
when Black Sabbath asked
372
00:34:34,763 --> 00:34:37,630
if my father was interested
in managing them.
373
00:34:39,200 --> 00:34:44,194
Black Sabbath was a phenomenon.
It just instantly happened.
374
00:34:46,508 --> 00:34:50,069
And for guys that just came
from a poor background,
375
00:34:50,145 --> 00:34:53,546
to suddenly money everywhere
being thrown at them,
376
00:34:54,249 --> 00:34:59,209
they were really out of their comfort
zone, those guys, they really were.
377
00:34:59,321 --> 00:35:03,087
When you think they were
all so young, terribly young.
378
00:35:09,097 --> 00:35:12,897
Towards the late '70s,
we were very high, high, high.
379
00:35:13,401 --> 00:35:14,663
There was a lot of cocaine.
380
00:35:14,736 --> 00:35:18,502
I know I was using cocaine regularly,
on a daily basis.
381
00:35:18,673 --> 00:35:22,609
I remember doing it every day,
like, 24 hours a day, practically.
382
00:35:22,744 --> 00:35:27,681
So, I didn't realise at the time,
all the management was interested in
383
00:35:27,749 --> 00:35:30,741
was ripping as much money off us
as they possibly could.
384
00:35:30,885 --> 00:35:36,016
I mean, Sabbath was royally fucking
ripped off. Royally ripped off.
385
00:35:36,191 --> 00:35:39,524
And then we didn't know
anything about royalties.
386
00:35:41,096 --> 00:35:44,122
I didn't even know you got
royalties for writing the music.
387
00:35:44,532 --> 00:35:48,901
Circa about 1976, I produced
this report, quite a long report,
388
00:35:48,970 --> 00:35:52,701
basically saying how their money
wasn't quite as they thought it was.
389
00:35:52,807 --> 00:35:55,867
For example, they all had houses,
but they didn't own them.
390
00:35:55,944 --> 00:35:59,209
We had all these million, platinum
selling albums and everything,
391
00:35:59,280 --> 00:36:02,113
and nothing to show for it. No money.
392
00:36:02,217 --> 00:36:05,482
We were all
out of our brains on dope.
393
00:36:07,355 --> 00:36:10,153
So the band was just, like,
split anyway.
394
00:36:12,093 --> 00:36:14,186
It had been broken, really.
395
00:36:14,796 --> 00:36:16,730
Hello, welcome to Top of The Pops,
and right now,
396
00:36:16,798 --> 00:36:19,392
here's a rundown
on the brand new Top 30.
397
00:36:35,683 --> 00:36:36,877
Right now, Never Say Die,
398
00:36:36,985 --> 00:36:39,215
that's the brand new one
from Black Sabbath.
399
00:37:02,944 --> 00:37:05,708
The last album I did with Sabbath
was Never Say Die.
400
00:37:05,814 --> 00:37:09,614
It was the worst piece of work that
I've ever had anything to do with.
401
00:37:09,684 --> 00:37:12,084
I'm ashamed of that album.
It was disgusting.
402
00:37:25,300 --> 00:37:28,098
He puts everything he's got into it.
That's Black Sabbath right there.
403
00:37:28,169 --> 00:37:29,636
John Travolta and Olivia Newton-John
404
00:37:29,704 --> 00:37:31,695
have gone straight in
at number 23 this week...
405
00:37:36,211 --> 00:37:38,304
When his dad passed away,
406
00:37:38,680 --> 00:37:43,913
and it really knocked the shit out
of him. It nearly destroyed him.
407
00:37:45,353 --> 00:37:49,312
We were all devastated.
We all loved Jack.
408
00:37:49,624 --> 00:37:53,685
It was Jack that had
given us the crosses.
409
00:37:54,896 --> 00:37:57,797
This is the original, original,
original Sabbath cross.
410
00:37:57,866 --> 00:38:00,835
My father made that
when he was at work,
411
00:38:00,902 --> 00:38:03,803
and then when
he'd come back with it,
412
00:38:03,938 --> 00:38:07,465
everyone in the band wanted one
and he made another.
413
00:38:07,575 --> 00:38:12,239
Bill Ward wore his
right up to relatively recently.
414
00:38:13,615 --> 00:38:16,846
I always wanted a man-to-man
conversation with my father,
415
00:38:16,985 --> 00:38:20,477
but I was too into drugs and alcohol
before he died.
416
00:38:20,889 --> 00:38:23,551
I miss my father a lot, you know.
417
00:38:24,626 --> 00:38:27,151
But I was young, I was doing...
418
00:38:27,228 --> 00:38:30,026
I was riding the fame game
for a long time.
419
00:38:33,234 --> 00:38:35,464
Ozz was in absolute turmoil,
420
00:38:35,570 --> 00:38:38,266
and he put himself
right inside the bottle.
421
00:38:39,541 --> 00:38:41,805
He stayed there for a while.
422
00:38:42,944 --> 00:38:46,402
And so we got on with trying
to make another record.
423
00:38:48,349 --> 00:38:53,309
And we all came over to LA
to do the album after Never Say Die,
424
00:38:53,388 --> 00:38:55,754
and Ozzy didn't turn up
for two weeks.
425
00:38:55,823 --> 00:39:01,056
Two weeks later, he rolls through
the door, smashed out of his head.
426
00:39:01,796 --> 00:39:05,425
He'd beaten somebody up on the plane
coming over from England,
427
00:39:05,500 --> 00:39:09,834
and the Customs had arrested him
for beating this person up.
428
00:39:11,439 --> 00:39:17,344
By the time we got to the house, he
was obliterated, started rehearsing,
429
00:39:17,412 --> 00:39:19,175
and he just wouldn't sing
on anything.
430
00:39:19,247 --> 00:39:22,045
He was like,
"That's shit. Crap, that is."
431
00:39:22,350 --> 00:39:24,477
Ozzy wasn't into it.
He really wasn't into it.
432
00:39:24,552 --> 00:39:28,648
And most of the time,
he would be on the couch asleep,
433
00:39:28,723 --> 00:39:30,452
he'd have done some Quaaludes
or whatever
434
00:39:30,525 --> 00:39:34,086
it might've been at that time,
and he wasn't happy, I don't think.
435
00:39:34,162 --> 00:39:36,687
He was doing too much of everything,
as we all were,
436
00:39:36,764 --> 00:39:40,791
but some people can handle it better
than others. He couldn't handle it.
437
00:39:40,868 --> 00:39:42,301
The conversations began about
438
00:39:42,370 --> 00:39:44,770
the possibility of looking
at another singer.
439
00:39:45,840 --> 00:39:48,274
He just didn't want to be there.
440
00:39:48,376 --> 00:39:50,901
We knew it was, like,
either the whole band split,
441
00:39:50,979 --> 00:39:53,072
or we'd get somebody else in.
442
00:39:53,147 --> 00:39:58,676
It was me that actually says to him,
"You know, Ozz, we're gonna move on.
443
00:39:58,753 --> 00:40:02,018
"We're gonna move on without you."
Broke my heart.
444
00:40:05,026 --> 00:40:08,018
We all cried our eyes out
for about a week,
445
00:40:09,030 --> 00:40:11,521
when Ozzy had gone, because we...
446
00:40:12,967 --> 00:40:16,994
I swear to God, if he hadn't
have been fired from the band,
447
00:40:17,071 --> 00:40:20,472
he'd have been dead within a month.
448
00:40:23,177 --> 00:40:26,874
It was tough for Ozzy when
he first got let go from Sabbath.
449
00:40:26,948 --> 00:40:30,907
He had very low self-esteem,
he had no confidence whatsoever.
450
00:40:31,319 --> 00:40:33,378
When I got fired from Sabbath,
451
00:40:33,488 --> 00:40:35,683
I didn't know what to do,
I didn't know where to go.
452
00:40:35,757 --> 00:40:38,988
I thought it was
the end of the dream.
453
00:40:39,460 --> 00:40:42,452
I'd never ever dreamed
that I would do it again on my own.
454
00:40:42,530 --> 00:40:45,021
I just thought, "This is it."
So what money I had,
455
00:40:45,099 --> 00:40:46,930
I just got fucked up and bought drugs
456
00:40:47,001 --> 00:40:50,801
and stayed in an apartment
for three months and got loaded.
457
00:40:51,506 --> 00:40:56,068
You'd go into Ozzy's room
and he'd be curled up on the floor
458
00:40:56,144 --> 00:40:59,773
covered in piss,
beer bottles all around him,
459
00:40:59,847 --> 00:41:02,748
drug paraphernalia everywhere.
460
00:41:02,950 --> 00:41:06,317
And what could be sadder,
what could be lower than that?
461
00:41:06,454 --> 00:41:08,649
His dignity had well gone.
462
00:41:15,763 --> 00:41:18,926
Ozzy did feel very alone,
lost and broke.
463
00:41:19,033 --> 00:41:21,763
Suddenly he was out of the band,
and would he get picked up,
464
00:41:21,836 --> 00:41:24,430
and who was interested in him
and was his career over?
465
00:41:25,340 --> 00:41:28,173
For a guy like me
who's got self-esteem issues,
466
00:41:28,276 --> 00:41:31,177
the idea of going solo
was very, very scary.
467
00:41:32,380 --> 00:41:34,371
I knew he had great talent
468
00:41:34,449 --> 00:41:39,352
and I just felt in my gut
that he could make a huge comeback.
469
00:41:39,954 --> 00:41:45,449
It was then that I became
his actual manager, properly.
470
00:41:45,993 --> 00:41:49,429
And first thing,
we had to find that band.
471
00:41:51,499 --> 00:41:55,458
We auditioned hundreds
of guitar players.
472
00:41:55,703 --> 00:42:00,265
Literally, we would turn up
at the rehearsal rooms
473
00:42:00,341 --> 00:42:03,435
and there would be lines
around the block
474
00:42:03,644 --> 00:42:06,340
of musicians waiting to see Ozzy.
475
00:42:06,414 --> 00:42:08,109
It was a bit
of a slow process at first,
476
00:42:08,182 --> 00:42:11,481
until I met someone who put me
in touch with Randy Rhoads.
477
00:42:12,954 --> 00:42:16,390
Randy had a deep-ish voice
for a little guy, like, "Wow."
478
00:42:17,291 --> 00:42:21,751
So he goes into the studio and I'm
sitting here in this studio window,
479
00:42:21,863 --> 00:42:25,230
like that thing, you know,
I'm fucking zonked.
480
00:42:25,299 --> 00:42:26,527
And he goes,
"What do you want me to..."
481
00:42:26,601 --> 00:42:28,967
I said, "Play any fucking thing."
482
00:42:29,203 --> 00:42:31,467
He said, "I have a solo,"
and he played his fucking solo.
483
00:42:31,539 --> 00:42:34,804
And I was like,
"Am I that fucking stoned,
484
00:42:34,909 --> 00:42:37,275
"or am I hallucinating?
What the fuck is this?"
485
00:43:22,990 --> 00:43:26,050
So he was very lucky
to run into Randy Rhoads.
486
00:43:26,294 --> 00:43:31,561
And the guitar sound
really reinvented Ozzy's voice.
487
00:43:40,842 --> 00:43:45,404
And he had a true writing partner,
and a friend. They really clicked.
488
00:43:49,250 --> 00:43:51,480
Everybody thought maybe
he was gonna be down and out
489
00:43:51,552 --> 00:43:54,817
because of what happened with Sabbath
and he just shocked the world.
490
00:43:58,893 --> 00:44:00,360
Especially with Randy Rhoads,
491
00:44:00,428 --> 00:44:03,488
and the magnitude
of what this guy was doing.
492
00:44:03,564 --> 00:44:07,330
Here's this guy who's giving
Eddie Van Halen a run for his money
493
00:44:07,401 --> 00:44:09,892
and everybody thought
that Eddie Van Halen was the king.
494
00:44:17,345 --> 00:44:21,213
I knew instinctively that
he was something extra special.
495
00:44:21,315 --> 00:44:24,113
He was like a gift from God.
496
00:44:24,218 --> 00:44:28,814
And having that fucking thing,
having a gift from a higher power,
497
00:44:28,923 --> 00:44:31,084
I don't know
what the fucking deal was,
498
00:44:31,158 --> 00:44:33,524
but this guy did something to me.
499
00:44:33,594 --> 00:44:38,190
And one thing that
he gave to me was hope.
500
00:44:38,399 --> 00:44:41,891
He gave me a reason for carrying on.
501
00:44:48,109 --> 00:44:52,205
Blizzard of Ozz, the first record,
was done in six weeks.
502
00:44:52,313 --> 00:44:57,444
It just instantly, instantly
blew up everywhere.
503
00:45:05,593 --> 00:45:10,587
He went right on tour
through Europe with the band.
504
00:45:10,731 --> 00:45:15,430
Then back into the studio three
months later to do Diary of a Madman.
505
00:45:18,072 --> 00:45:22,372
Less than a year after being fired
from Black Sabbath,
506
00:45:22,443 --> 00:45:24,536
Ozzy was a rock star again.
507
00:45:47,401 --> 00:45:50,632
Diary of a Madman tour
was just massive.
508
00:45:50,805 --> 00:45:53,501
It was the loudest show
I've ever been a part of.
509
00:46:54,869 --> 00:46:57,429
That tour was just
like a magical time.
510
00:46:57,505 --> 00:47:01,066
I think Randy and Ozzy
gelled together
511
00:47:01,976 --> 00:47:04,706
like left and right hand,
it was just amazing.
512
00:47:04,845 --> 00:47:06,210
Their friendship was...
513
00:47:07,481 --> 00:47:11,747
It was just like
two best mates hanging out
514
00:47:11,819 --> 00:47:15,255
and laughing
but yet that passion for music,
515
00:47:15,322 --> 00:47:18,291
everything, the albums
that they were writing,
516
00:47:18,359 --> 00:47:22,693
and the gigs,
just music talk the whole time.
517
00:47:22,763 --> 00:47:27,132
Randy was able to achieve
a lot in a very short period of time.
518
00:47:27,201 --> 00:47:30,227
And a lot of it
was due to Ozzy's mentorship.
519
00:47:31,038 --> 00:47:34,474
Randy, on behalf of the
over half million readers
520
00:47:34,542 --> 00:47:37,067
of Guitar Player Magazine in the US
521
00:47:37,144 --> 00:47:38,907
and in 70 countries
throughout the world
522
00:47:38,979 --> 00:47:42,938
I'd like to present you with
the 1981 Best New Talent Award.
523
00:47:43,050 --> 00:47:44,711
- Congratulations.
- Thank you.
524
00:47:52,159 --> 00:47:54,150
Give him a kiss, Ozzy.
525
00:47:57,531 --> 00:47:59,590
I've got a lot of work to do,
526
00:47:59,667 --> 00:48:03,159
and it makes you realise
it's a lot of responsibility.
527
00:48:03,838 --> 00:48:08,832
This tour, I wanna really
get myself together and work hard
528
00:48:08,943 --> 00:48:12,344
because I'm really proud
and honoured,
529
00:48:13,547 --> 00:48:15,572
and I don't wanna stop here.
530
00:48:19,253 --> 00:48:23,019
Randy Rhoads, the 25-year-old lead
guitarist for Ozzy Osbourne's group,
531
00:48:23,090 --> 00:48:26,184
was killed in a plane crash this
morning along with two other people,
532
00:48:26,260 --> 00:48:28,490
Andrew Aycock,
the pilot of the plane,
533
00:48:28,562 --> 00:48:31,360
also Rachel Youngblood,
the group's hairdresser.
534
00:48:31,499 --> 00:48:34,093
Ozzy Osbourne himself was in the van
535
00:48:34,168 --> 00:48:36,159
when one of the plane's
wings clipped it,
536
00:48:36,237 --> 00:48:38,637
but Ozzy escaped injury,
we understand.
537
00:48:38,706 --> 00:48:41,732
25-year-old Randy Rhoads
is dead today.
538
00:48:43,410 --> 00:48:46,868
The morning that Randy was killed,
I'll never forget.
539
00:48:49,517 --> 00:48:54,511
I'll never forget.
We were there for so many hours
540
00:48:54,588 --> 00:48:58,820
because it took so long
for the authorities to come down,
541
00:48:58,893 --> 00:49:00,952
the police and the fire department.
542
00:49:01,028 --> 00:49:05,965
We finally went to a nearby hotel
and I just couldn't stay in my room.
543
00:49:06,066 --> 00:49:10,662
So I went down the street and I found
a church right down the street.
544
00:49:11,438 --> 00:49:13,702
All I wanted to do was just sit there
545
00:49:13,874 --> 00:49:18,641
and just make some sense
of what was going on.
546
00:49:19,146 --> 00:49:22,741
I didn't even look up
and I'm sitting there
547
00:49:23,551 --> 00:49:27,317
and I hear this sobbing
and this crying...
548
00:49:30,424 --> 00:49:36,090
And I thought, "Wow, this person has
got to be in more pain than I am."
549
00:49:36,297 --> 00:49:39,232
And I look up
and it's Ozzy sitting there.
550
00:49:41,001 --> 00:49:44,061
The craziest day of my life
was the day that Randy Rhoads died.
551
00:49:44,205 --> 00:49:47,174
And I couldn't believe that.
You got to deal with that.
552
00:49:47,241 --> 00:49:51,177
People tend to forget people
in this business so quickly.
553
00:49:51,579 --> 00:49:53,809
That guy was my brother, man.
554
00:49:53,914 --> 00:49:56,940
That guy was a part of my life,
and he's dead.
555
00:49:57,017 --> 00:50:00,248
Why don't people start talking to me
about the death of Randy Rhoads
556
00:50:00,354 --> 00:50:03,551
instead of asking me the craziest
prank that I've ever done?
557
00:50:03,824 --> 00:50:06,190
That's the craziest prank
that I've ever witnessed,
558
00:50:06,260 --> 00:50:08,285
was seeing that guy burn.
559
00:50:08,662 --> 00:50:13,099
And the day that Randy Rhoads died,
that was the day a part of me died.
560
00:50:13,167 --> 00:50:16,500
And Rachel Youngblood, my seamstress.
561
00:50:16,570 --> 00:50:19,562
Can't forget that.
It just gets kind of weird.
562
00:51:00,247 --> 00:51:02,147
It's Friday or Saturday, yeah?
563
00:51:02,416 --> 00:51:04,179
Today is Saturday, yes.
564
00:51:04,385 --> 00:51:06,148
I don't know what country
I'm in half the time.
565
00:51:06,220 --> 00:51:09,678
- I don't know what time it is.
- Tell me about it.
566
00:53:18,385 --> 00:53:23,448
After the Diary of a Madman tour,
I went to Barbados with my family.
567
00:53:23,524 --> 00:53:26,857
My ex-wife told me on the plane,
coming back, "I want a divorce."
568
00:53:28,595 --> 00:53:31,189
But that was very ugly for a while.
569
00:53:31,498 --> 00:53:35,559
My children still wanted
their father, their dad,
570
00:53:35,669 --> 00:53:40,129
and that's a fucking dreadful feeling
that you have to go through.
571
00:53:40,707 --> 00:53:45,303
I remember going to my house one day
and Louis, my son, was a little kid
572
00:53:45,979 --> 00:53:47,412
and he got me...
573
00:53:47,481 --> 00:53:50,917
I can remember him
sticking his fingernails in,
574
00:53:50,984 --> 00:53:53,418
and tears were streaming
down his face and he says,
575
00:53:53,487 --> 00:53:56,923
"Daddy, please come home.
We can work this out."
576
00:53:56,990 --> 00:54:02,758
That one incident tore my heart out.
Tore my fucking heart out.
577
00:54:02,830 --> 00:54:05,890
It just fucked me up.
And I don't know really...
578
00:54:06,700 --> 00:54:08,827
It devastated me.
579
00:54:14,141 --> 00:54:17,872
Ozzy and I were friends.
We worked together and that was it.
580
00:54:18,412 --> 00:54:22,974
But it wasn't until August of 1980
581
00:54:23,383 --> 00:54:27,183
that we actually
had a relationship going.
582
00:54:31,391 --> 00:54:37,853
The first night that we were actually
together in Shepperton in 1980,
583
00:54:37,931 --> 00:54:41,765
and then the next day I thought,
"Oh, well. It just happened.
584
00:54:41,835 --> 00:54:46,397
"Drunk. We were in the moment.
It'll all be over."
585
00:54:46,540 --> 00:54:50,271
- And each night after the show...
- It happened again...
586
00:54:50,344 --> 00:54:53,313
It happened again
and again and again.
587
00:54:53,447 --> 00:54:58,214
And it was either we were
in the pub, in bed or on stage.
588
00:54:58,418 --> 00:55:01,182
- That was it? Yeah.
- That's about it, isn't it?
589
00:55:06,026 --> 00:55:08,620
I didn't know they had
a relationship or anything.
590
00:55:08,929 --> 00:55:10,863
I'm shooting Ozzy in the bed,
591
00:55:10,964 --> 00:55:17,460
and then all of a sudden,
Sharon goes under the covers.
592
00:55:19,373 --> 00:55:23,707
All of a sudden, Sharon's down there
like she's doing the deed.
593
00:55:23,944 --> 00:55:26,208
And Ozzy's just like freaking.
594
00:55:28,982 --> 00:55:32,941
Ozzy and I got married
in 1982 in Maui.
595
00:55:39,426 --> 00:55:42,759
And we wanted to start a family,
that's why we got married.
596
00:55:42,829 --> 00:55:45,161
We both wanted our own family.
597
00:56:07,721 --> 00:56:10,884
Dad was there for me
when I was growing up.
598
00:56:10,958 --> 00:56:13,722
There were times,
there were, like, chunks.
599
00:56:14,027 --> 00:56:20,762
But then again, there were loads of
times where he wasn't a great father,
600
00:56:20,834 --> 00:56:24,463
and he wasn't there
when I needed him.
601
00:56:24,638 --> 00:56:28,438
Meaning the fact that he was
messed up a lot of the time.
602
00:56:28,609 --> 00:56:31,442
When he was drunk,
he was mostly tearful,
603
00:56:32,913 --> 00:56:35,404
and sometimes he'd get a bit angry.
604
00:56:35,582 --> 00:56:40,019
And a bit, like, "I work hard.
I should be able to do what I want."
605
00:56:41,922 --> 00:56:43,856
But mostly tearful.
606
00:56:43,924 --> 00:56:47,360
I don't honestly think that
Ozzy knew how to be a father.
607
00:56:47,427 --> 00:56:52,091
The drinking, the huge success
that was going on in his life,
608
00:56:52,232 --> 00:56:56,498
the turmoil of leaving one family
and starting another family...
609
00:56:56,703 --> 00:56:59,968
He was treading water.
610
00:57:00,507 --> 00:57:04,034
And that caused the behaviour
to get even worse.
611
00:57:04,511 --> 00:57:08,709
So his pranks that he used to play
612
00:57:08,782 --> 00:57:12,013
would get bigger and larger
and crazier,
613
00:57:12,085 --> 00:57:16,545
and his whole behaviour,
on and off stage, was over the top.
614
00:57:17,124 --> 00:57:20,525
And it was like insanity,
615
00:57:20,594 --> 00:57:25,031
just going around and around
and around, complete insanity.
616
00:57:25,098 --> 00:57:26,793
Rock star Ozzy Osbourne,
617
00:57:26,867 --> 00:57:30,997
who is known for biting the heads
off of bats at his concerts...
618
00:57:31,071 --> 00:57:33,869
Osbourne was arrested
for urinating on the Alamo...
619
00:57:34,207 --> 00:57:36,903
The Union Arena was filled
with the anticipation
620
00:57:36,977 --> 00:57:41,505
of a cat slaughter tonight. Rumour
was that punk rocker Ozzy Osbourne
621
00:57:41,581 --> 00:57:44,106
was going to release
hundreds of cats here
622
00:57:44,251 --> 00:57:47,618
and expected the audience to kill
them before his appearance onstage.
623
00:57:47,921 --> 00:57:49,946
The lyrics from one of his songs
624
00:57:50,023 --> 00:57:52,014
encouraged a young man
to commit suicide.
625
00:57:52,492 --> 00:57:55,893
His father claims John was listening
to Ozzy Osbourne music at the time.
626
00:57:56,363 --> 00:57:57,523
He gained reputation for being
627
00:57:57,597 --> 00:57:59,997
rock 'n' roll's definitive
crazy person.
628
00:58:00,267 --> 00:58:01,825
Well, I suppose you could say that.
629
00:58:01,935 --> 00:58:05,871
- Can we talk about you being crazy?
- I'm not crazy...
630
00:58:07,207 --> 00:58:10,768
In the '80s, I was the craziest guy
of rock 'n' roll.
631
00:58:10,844 --> 00:58:14,245
If you wanted me to do something,
tell me not to.
632
00:58:14,781 --> 00:58:16,806
That was about the order
of the fucking day.
633
00:58:16,883 --> 00:58:19,545
I was drunk and fucked up
on a daily basis.
634
00:58:19,653 --> 00:58:22,349
So, when you get drunk and fucked up,
they hardly expect you
635
00:58:22,422 --> 00:58:25,687
to fucking tiptoe through the tulips
or whatever the fuck.
636
00:58:27,060 --> 00:58:30,029
When you're loaded,
you do crazy things.
637
00:58:53,487 --> 00:58:57,480
It was the first time
that Ozzy met the A&R staff,
638
00:58:57,557 --> 00:59:01,653
promotional staff,
at CBS in Los Angeles.
639
00:59:03,196 --> 00:59:06,393
Ozzy's deal was a cheap deal.
They didn't want Ozzy.
640
00:59:06,500 --> 00:59:11,267
It was a favour that they
signed Ozzy. It was just a favour.
641
00:59:11,938 --> 00:59:14,873
Sixty-five grand
they paid for the album.
642
00:59:15,041 --> 00:59:18,306
So he wasn't on their
"high list of priorities."
643
00:59:18,578 --> 00:59:21,069
They had fucking Michael Jackson.
644
00:59:21,148 --> 00:59:25,141
And it was like,
"Okay, they've got to remember you."
645
00:59:25,318 --> 00:59:28,378
So, then we said,
"Doves of peace. That'll be nice.
646
00:59:28,555 --> 00:59:33,390
"Go in and let the birds go
and then it'll be lovely," you know.
647
00:59:33,794 --> 00:59:36,285
"They'll remember,
maybe it'll shit on somebody's desk
648
00:59:36,396 --> 00:59:39,194
"and that'll be funny,
and then we leave."
649
00:59:39,266 --> 00:59:43,225
She wanted me to go in there
with two doves, a peace offering.
650
00:59:43,737 --> 00:59:46,297
She says, "You blow this
and we are completely fucked."
651
00:59:46,406 --> 00:59:49,773
We go into the meeting
and there's the big conference table
652
00:59:49,843 --> 00:59:53,279
and there must've been, I don't know,
20, 30 people in there.
653
00:59:53,346 --> 00:59:55,712
And he sat there
and he lets this bird go
654
00:59:55,782 --> 01:00:00,151
and everybody's,
"Oh, magic trick. Oh, is that real?"
655
01:00:00,220 --> 01:00:03,587
I threw the one up in the air,
it sat on this girl's lap,
656
01:00:03,657 --> 01:00:06,057
snapped the other one in my mouth
and bit its head off.
657
01:00:06,226 --> 01:00:09,059
There's a photo somewhere
of the actual event happening.
658
01:00:15,602 --> 01:00:18,765
He just picked it up
and ripped its head off
659
01:00:18,839 --> 01:00:20,534
and spat it out on the girl.
660
01:00:20,707 --> 01:00:24,108
And she went absolutely
fucking insane.
661
01:00:28,081 --> 01:00:29,912
They suddenly called the security
662
01:00:29,983 --> 01:00:33,146
and we were yanked out
of the conference room.
663
01:00:37,123 --> 01:00:38,647
It was not a publicity stunt.
664
01:00:38,725 --> 01:00:41,455
I was just out of my fucking face
on drugs and alcohol.
665
01:00:41,728 --> 01:00:44,458
What is the truth behind
Ozzy biting the head off a bat?
666
01:00:44,664 --> 01:00:47,224
The bat started because of the dove.
667
01:00:47,901 --> 01:00:50,768
Kids kept hearing these stories,
668
01:00:51,004 --> 01:00:54,405
so they would bring him animals
to the gigs,
669
01:00:55,742 --> 01:00:58,040
thinking that he would
want to eat them.
670
01:00:58,578 --> 01:01:01,172
And somebody threw a bat
and I don't know...
671
01:01:01,982 --> 01:01:05,008
To find someone who goes
to a concert with a bat,
672
01:01:05,185 --> 01:01:07,653
a real bat... You always get
the joke ones, you know.
673
01:01:07,754 --> 01:01:10,951
You get like the rubber ones
you buy from the corner joke shop.
674
01:01:11,391 --> 01:01:13,291
And I picked it up,
I thought, "This should be good."
675
01:01:13,426 --> 01:01:15,917
- Bit into this bat...
- You bit it.
676
01:01:16,129 --> 01:01:19,121
Believe me, if I'd have known
it was a real live bat,
677
01:01:19,199 --> 01:01:21,360
I would never have picked it up.
678
01:01:21,501 --> 01:01:23,298
But I'll tell what, you know,
679
01:01:23,370 --> 01:01:27,807
afterwards, the rabies shots
were horrendous.
680
01:01:30,510 --> 01:01:35,072
It went out on the wire that Ozzy
had bitten the head off a bat
681
01:01:35,148 --> 01:01:36,911
and had to have these rabies shots.
682
01:01:36,983 --> 01:01:41,977
And then suddenly, Ozzy
is this larger-than-life character.
683
01:01:48,662 --> 01:01:50,562
When we were on tour with Ozzy,
684
01:01:50,864 --> 01:01:53,264
we would always have these crazy
parties backstage.
685
01:01:54,167 --> 01:01:55,725
He would come onto our bus and say,
686
01:01:55,802 --> 01:01:58,532
"I'm riding with you guys
to the next city."
687
01:01:58,605 --> 01:02:00,596
And he'd fucking reach into his
688
01:02:00,674 --> 01:02:03,643
coat pocket or his pants
and pull out, he goes...
689
01:02:04,244 --> 01:02:06,109
He'd pull out, like,
two huge bags of cocaine,
690
01:02:06,179 --> 01:02:09,615
and he goes, "I've got bags of
this shit." And we would fucking...
691
01:02:09,683 --> 01:02:11,674
All of us would go back
to the back of the bus
692
01:02:11,751 --> 01:02:13,878
and we would fucking snort cocaine
693
01:02:13,954 --> 01:02:17,151
for fucking, you know,
10-hour bus rides.
694
01:02:18,391 --> 01:02:20,450
And we're walking into the hotels
like the Four Seasons
695
01:02:20,527 --> 01:02:23,018
or the Ritz-Carltons
where, you know, Mom and Dad...
696
01:02:23,096 --> 01:02:25,064
"We're a happy family,
we're out by the pool,"
697
01:02:25,131 --> 01:02:26,689
and everybody's like...
Their little resort.
698
01:02:26,766 --> 01:02:30,099
And here comes Mцtley Crьe and Ozzy,
just fucking blasted.
699
01:02:32,439 --> 01:02:35,875
And it was this
who-can-out-gross contest,
700
01:02:35,942 --> 01:02:38,001
which Nikki kind of started.
701
01:02:38,111 --> 01:02:41,103
And all of a sudden, we're sitting
out by the pool having drinks,
702
01:02:41,247 --> 01:02:43,078
and Nikki pisses on the ground
703
01:02:43,149 --> 01:02:46,380
and goes to lick up his own piss
to freak Ozzy out.
704
01:02:46,586 --> 01:02:49,316
Ozzy beats him to the punch
and starts licking up Nikki's piss.
705
01:02:49,389 --> 01:02:52,950
And we're like, "Oh, fuck!
706
01:02:53,159 --> 01:02:55,593
"This is fucked up.
What is wrong with you two?"
707
01:02:57,230 --> 01:02:59,460
And the hotel was freaking out.
708
01:02:59,532 --> 01:03:01,227
Security's kicking us
out of the pool.
709
01:03:01,301 --> 01:03:03,428
They're doing the out-gross contest.
710
01:03:03,503 --> 01:03:06,028
Snorting ants,
fucking licking up each other's piss.
711
01:03:06,506 --> 01:03:08,872
And I'm like, "Dude,
let's just go to the fucking room.
712
01:03:09,009 --> 01:03:12,206
"Let's just chill out. Come on."
"And the fucking... Fucking..."
713
01:03:12,278 --> 01:03:15,076
And he's just going...
I'm like, "Dude, please."
714
01:03:15,148 --> 01:03:18,379
I just fucking grab him, "Come on!"
Take him to the elevator,
715
01:03:18,718 --> 01:03:21,585
I find his room, put the key in.
I'm like, "Okay, bud."
716
01:03:21,655 --> 01:03:25,284
I push the door, like, "Okay, bud,
you're in your room. Hey, bye."
717
01:03:25,358 --> 01:03:27,826
He's like,
"No, fucking come here, mate."
718
01:03:27,894 --> 01:03:30,590
And I'm like,
"Fuck, I almost got out of here."
719
01:03:30,830 --> 01:03:33,731
And he pulls me into his room,
pulls his pants down,
720
01:03:34,367 --> 01:03:36,961
and just shits on the fucking floor.
721
01:03:38,805 --> 01:03:42,764
A fucking big shit on the floor.
And I'm like...
722
01:03:43,810 --> 01:03:47,007
I'm like, "Okay, dude, I gotta go."
"No, fucking come..."
723
01:03:47,080 --> 01:03:49,105
And he fucking drags me back in,
724
01:03:49,182 --> 01:03:51,707
and now he picks up the shit,
and he's got it in his hands,
725
01:03:51,785 --> 01:03:55,050
and he's just smearing it all over
the walls of his fucking hotel room.
726
01:03:55,121 --> 01:03:58,522
I'm like, "Dude, I gotta go.
This is fucked up."
727
01:03:59,225 --> 01:04:04,390
I just remember turning around
and I just saw his back,
728
01:04:04,464 --> 01:04:06,694
and he was just painting
with his shit on the walls,
729
01:04:06,766 --> 01:04:09,326
and I just fucking was like,
"Now is my chance."
730
01:04:09,536 --> 01:04:11,367
And I fucking pinned it
out of there, dude.
731
01:04:11,438 --> 01:04:14,032
I was like, "This is
on some other next level shit.
732
01:04:14,107 --> 01:04:17,372
"Like, I'm not really ready
to compete at this level.
733
01:04:17,811 --> 01:04:21,303
"I'm cool
with taking a shit in the toilet."
734
01:04:26,519 --> 01:04:30,979
I think
that Ozzy's behaviour in the '80s,
735
01:04:31,057 --> 01:04:35,221
I think it's a fact of everything
Ozzy had always lost.
736
01:04:35,328 --> 01:04:38,661
You know, he lost Sabbath,
737
01:04:39,199 --> 01:04:42,430
he lost his first wife,
he lost his first kids.
738
01:04:42,836 --> 01:04:45,896
Everything would come and go.
739
01:04:45,972 --> 01:04:50,807
So, he was fucking everything
that fucking had a pulse,
740
01:04:50,877 --> 01:04:53,345
sniffing everything he could sniff.
741
01:04:53,413 --> 01:04:55,540
Because he thought
that it was all going to end,
742
01:04:55,615 --> 01:04:59,244
so he was going to go out with a...
You know, on a high.
743
01:05:10,964 --> 01:05:12,488
I hated this video.
744
01:05:13,133 --> 01:05:15,328
So fucking lame.
745
01:05:19,038 --> 01:05:20,972
I don't like it. Fucking...
746
01:05:21,107 --> 01:05:23,905
Everybody was fucked up
and drunk and everything.
747
01:05:25,411 --> 01:05:27,072
When I look at it,
I don't even remember
748
01:05:27,147 --> 01:05:29,638
what drugs I was addicted to
at the fucking time.
749
01:05:33,219 --> 01:05:34,811
So, next! Come on.
750
01:05:52,172 --> 01:05:55,266
It's a clichйd fucking '80s video.
751
01:06:02,182 --> 01:06:04,207
I can't remember
doing this fucking thing.
752
01:06:04,484 --> 01:06:07,920
I was a mess in the '80s.
I was doing fucking morphine,
753
01:06:08,054 --> 01:06:13,151
Vicodin, fucking booze.
All kinds of shit, really.
754
01:06:13,293 --> 01:06:16,456
I can't remember.
I just can't remember it at all.
755
01:06:17,730 --> 01:06:18,719
Never happened.
756
01:06:23,770 --> 01:06:25,032
Next.
757
01:06:34,314 --> 01:06:35,303
Hokey.
758
01:06:39,686 --> 01:06:42,154
"Whose idea was this?"
How the fuck do I know?
759
01:06:42,689 --> 01:06:47,058
It's just boring. I find it hard
to go back there and look at it.
760
01:06:47,694 --> 01:06:49,218
I don't want to go back there,
you know.
761
01:06:57,403 --> 01:06:58,768
Where are you going?
762
01:06:58,838 --> 01:07:02,171
Have a walk around,
than fucking watch this shit.
763
01:08:09,742 --> 01:08:11,107
Let's get on with this.
764
01:08:11,277 --> 01:08:14,940
- Yes. What does it feel like tonight?
- Come on.
765
01:08:15,014 --> 01:08:17,380
You have a tour starting tomorrow.
766
01:08:17,483 --> 01:08:19,974
Is it always like this
or is this an exception?
767
01:08:23,690 --> 01:08:27,490
Yeah. Yeah, it is. Come on, come on.
768
01:08:29,796 --> 01:08:30,888
Yeah.
769
01:08:32,966 --> 01:08:35,696
No... It's like we do...
770
01:08:37,236 --> 01:08:40,069
Sixteen days ago,
we got over from Japan.
771
01:08:44,410 --> 01:08:50,280
When Ozzy was drunk,
he was fucked up beyond belief.
772
01:08:50,350 --> 01:08:52,443
I mean, to the point where
773
01:08:52,518 --> 01:08:55,976
he would drink
until he couldn't drink any more.
774
01:08:56,756 --> 01:08:58,815
Where he would be unconscious...
775
01:08:58,891 --> 01:09:00,290
That's the only thing
that would stop him drinking.
776
01:09:00,360 --> 01:09:02,123
He'd be unconscious or asleep.
777
01:09:03,463 --> 01:09:08,093
He was blacking out, he was drinking
and going unconscious on the floor.
778
01:09:09,202 --> 01:09:11,102
He couldn't move.
His eyes would be open.
779
01:09:11,170 --> 01:09:13,263
But he would be, like, unconscious.
It was weird.
780
01:09:17,076 --> 01:09:20,011
I passed out with a bottle
of fucking Vicodin in my mouth.
781
01:09:21,514 --> 01:09:26,144
Mainly, I was concerned about him
choking on his vomit,
782
01:09:26,219 --> 01:09:28,483
falling asleep when he was drunk,
and choking on his vomit.
783
01:09:34,827 --> 01:09:37,694
This is me at my stag night,
I'm fucking blasted.
784
01:09:44,504 --> 01:09:47,234
I think it was in Memphis,
Ozzy disappeared.
785
01:09:49,542 --> 01:09:51,476
He got found in the middle
of a freeway.
786
01:09:51,544 --> 01:09:53,705
He crossed over half of a freeway
and stopped in the middle
787
01:09:53,780 --> 01:09:56,248
and he was
in the central reservation.
788
01:09:56,749 --> 01:09:58,148
And he was sleeping and he woke up
789
01:09:58,217 --> 01:10:00,151
and he had to get across
the other half.
790
01:10:00,219 --> 01:10:02,346
I mean,
how he didn't get knocked over,
791
01:10:02,422 --> 01:10:04,583
'cause he was absolutely shit-faced.
792
01:10:07,927 --> 01:10:10,157
That's when
I clocked Sharon, I think.
793
01:10:10,263 --> 01:10:11,958
- Really?
- I think so.
794
01:10:12,899 --> 01:10:15,265
We were always fucking
fighting with each other.
795
01:10:16,869 --> 01:10:19,133
That's when I smacked Sharon
in the eye.
796
01:10:20,039 --> 01:10:21,563
Over what, I don't know.
797
01:10:23,342 --> 01:10:26,743
It had been coming for a while.
Ozzy was on a bender.
798
01:10:26,813 --> 01:10:30,476
You know, he was really on a roll.
799
01:10:33,252 --> 01:10:37,188
He'd been very bad
for the last couple of weeks.
800
01:10:37,256 --> 01:10:39,952
And we'd had a couple of fights where
801
01:10:40,026 --> 01:10:43,792
we'd beaten each other
and it was nasty.
802
01:10:43,863 --> 01:10:46,297
But you kind of get...
803
01:10:46,899 --> 01:10:49,834
When, anyone who knows,
who lives with an addict,
804
01:10:49,902 --> 01:10:52,837
that there are times
when it's worse than others,
805
01:10:52,905 --> 01:10:54,873
and it was just
building to something.
806
01:10:54,941 --> 01:10:57,705
You could just feel it
in the atmosphere between us.
807
01:10:58,377 --> 01:11:00,971
And my God, it did.
808
01:11:03,883 --> 01:11:08,479
I put the kids to bed,
was sat down, I was reading.
809
01:11:08,588 --> 01:11:11,785
And he came in. He'd been lying down.
810
01:11:12,325 --> 01:11:15,294
He'd actually drunk himself
into one of those
811
01:11:16,062 --> 01:11:18,087
coma-zone things on the bed.
812
01:11:18,397 --> 01:11:22,697
He'd passed out.
And woke up, came downstairs,
813
01:11:22,768 --> 01:11:28,001
and I knew when he came in that
he was looking for trouble.
814
01:11:28,074 --> 01:11:32,204
And Ozzy is very rarely calm.
815
01:11:32,278 --> 01:11:34,007
Very calm in his eyes,
816
01:11:34,080 --> 01:11:36,310
a kind of shutter
had gone down on his eyes,
817
01:11:36,382 --> 01:11:39,044
you couldn't really...
818
01:11:39,385 --> 01:11:43,549
I had no idea who
was sat across from me on the sofa,
819
01:11:43,623 --> 01:11:45,784
but it wasn't my husband.
820
01:11:47,994 --> 01:11:51,122
And then he just said that
he'd made a... They had come.
821
01:11:51,197 --> 01:11:56,999
He said they've made a decision that
I had to die. And I'm like, "They?"
822
01:11:57,069 --> 01:11:59,833
"Yes, they've made the decision.
We've made the decision.
823
01:11:59,906 --> 01:12:01,897
"You're gonna have to die."
824
01:12:01,974 --> 01:12:04,408
And then he just
825
01:12:05,878 --> 01:12:08,472
got up from the sofa
and just dived on me
826
01:12:08,548 --> 01:12:11,108
and started to choke me.
827
01:12:11,484 --> 01:12:12,781
Fabulous!
828
01:12:15,221 --> 01:12:17,917
All I remember was waking up
in Amersham jail.
829
01:12:17,990 --> 01:12:20,720
And I asked the cop why I was there.
830
01:12:21,294 --> 01:12:23,455
"Excuse me," I asked him,
"Why am I here?"
831
01:12:23,529 --> 01:12:26,430
He says,
"You want me to read your charge?"
832
01:12:26,632 --> 01:12:29,863
So he read,
"John Michael has been arrested
833
01:12:29,936 --> 01:12:32,370
"for attempted murder
of Sharon Osbourne."
834
01:12:32,438 --> 01:12:34,906
I'm like, "Is this a joke?"
835
01:12:34,974 --> 01:12:38,705
He says, "I'm not joking.
You'll go to court in a minute."
836
01:12:38,778 --> 01:12:42,942
That hit me like a fucking hammer
in between the eyes.
837
01:12:43,449 --> 01:12:47,977
I remember getting this dull
feeling in my heart.
838
01:12:50,156 --> 01:12:53,489
I didn't know whether she was
in hospital or what I had done.
839
01:13:09,175 --> 01:13:12,576
I know where we are.
That's where we used to rehearse.
840
01:13:12,645 --> 01:13:14,806
That's where
we used to rehearse, there.
841
01:13:16,415 --> 01:13:18,975
That's the pub I used to go to,
right over there.
842
01:13:19,051 --> 01:13:22,748
Down there is Witton Road.
I used to walk all the way up here
843
01:13:22,822 --> 01:13:26,349
to Lucas car factory every day to go
to work with my mum.
844
01:13:27,727 --> 01:13:29,820
Fucking hell!
845
01:13:31,564 --> 01:13:34,226
We are just coming up to
Lodge Road now.
846
01:13:44,277 --> 01:13:45,539
Fucking hell, man!
847
01:13:46,812 --> 01:13:50,714
It's so small, it's unbelievable.
I can't believe how small it is.
848
01:13:51,617 --> 01:13:53,585
Fucking Jesus Christ!
849
01:13:54,287 --> 01:13:57,779
When I was a kid, it used to be like
the longest road in the world.
850
01:14:00,660 --> 01:14:02,560
When you are a young kid
and you get successful like I did,
851
01:14:02,628 --> 01:14:04,858
you get very arrogant,
and your ego runs away.
852
01:14:04,930 --> 01:14:09,390
You think it's you, you know.
You forget your upbringing...
853
01:14:10,836 --> 01:14:13,270
Took me till now
to kind of realise that, you know.
854
01:14:16,676 --> 01:14:17,734
Wow!
855
01:14:19,245 --> 01:14:20,439
Wow!
856
01:14:22,882 --> 01:14:24,713
This is...
857
01:14:27,586 --> 01:14:29,645
Wow, this is unbelievable.
858
01:14:31,290 --> 01:14:34,088
It is amazing. Wow!
859
01:14:35,728 --> 01:14:37,753
That was Mrs Clarke's shop
I broke into.
860
01:14:41,033 --> 01:14:43,194
That was my bedroom up there.
861
01:14:44,603 --> 01:14:46,195
As my sisters... Most of my family...
862
01:14:46,272 --> 01:14:48,570
My sisters would get old
and get married.
863
01:14:48,641 --> 01:14:51,542
You're allowed to go into the back
room. You have it to yourself.
864
01:14:52,945 --> 01:14:54,674
And this is about right here.
865
01:14:56,115 --> 01:14:59,551
I lived in here for a while,
and this is unbelievable.
866
01:15:11,697 --> 01:15:15,155
I hated school. I fucking hated it.
867
01:15:18,371 --> 01:15:22,467
I have dreadful,
dreadfully bad dyslexia.
868
01:15:22,541 --> 01:15:26,238
When I was at school,
nobody knew what it was about.
869
01:15:26,312 --> 01:15:29,804
When somebody goes,
"Look, one plus one equals two."
870
01:15:30,049 --> 01:15:33,610
And you look at him, you go,
"What the fuck does 'one' mean?"
871
01:15:33,886 --> 01:15:36,013
I couldn't retain any information.
872
01:15:36,088 --> 01:15:38,921
My attention deficit was so bad,
still is.
873
01:15:39,658 --> 01:15:41,785
I go rambling on, you know.
874
01:15:41,861 --> 01:15:44,796
I don't know what I'm talking about
half the time. I just talk.
875
01:15:48,033 --> 01:15:50,024
I was very low on self-esteem.
876
01:15:50,669 --> 01:15:53,001
I used to get picked on by bullies.
877
01:15:53,439 --> 01:15:55,873
It just pushed me further
inside myself.
878
01:16:31,444 --> 01:16:34,174
Where you came from,
did everyone drink?
879
01:16:34,246 --> 01:16:35,736
Coming from the background
that I come from,
880
01:16:35,815 --> 01:16:38,909
I thought that was what you do.
881
01:16:38,984 --> 01:16:42,750
You get successful, you get married,
you have kids, you go to the pub.
882
01:16:42,822 --> 01:16:44,915
I used to think everybody,
883
01:16:44,990 --> 01:16:46,981
as they get older,
gets fucking pissed.
884
01:16:47,426 --> 01:16:50,862
The first time I got drunk was...
I was about 14.
885
01:16:50,930 --> 01:16:54,195
I drank it and I got the feeling...
886
01:16:54,266 --> 01:16:56,700
I drank till I pissed my pants
in this fucking pub.
887
01:16:56,936 --> 01:16:59,700
And then that's the way I...
From the first drink,
888
01:17:00,172 --> 01:17:03,403
I didn't drink for the drink,
I drank to get the effect.
889
01:17:03,843 --> 01:17:06,869
- How many rehabs?
- I've been in a bunch of...
890
01:17:06,946 --> 01:17:10,245
Between detoxes and rehab,
this would be at 10 or 12.
891
01:17:10,616 --> 01:17:16,111
Ozzy tried to get sober, I would say,
between 40 to 50 times.
892
01:17:16,922 --> 01:17:22,292
But he had been
in and out of rehabs about...
893
01:17:22,361 --> 01:17:26,161
I can think of 10 different rehabs
he went to, over the period of time.
894
01:17:27,132 --> 01:17:29,657
I used to go 90 days.
895
01:17:29,735 --> 01:17:32,966
I'd go, "Fuck this, it's crap!"
And go out and get fucked up again.
896
01:17:33,239 --> 01:17:34,900
One minute
he'd be sitting here sober,
897
01:17:34,974 --> 01:17:37,101
the next minute you'd see him,
he'd be fucked up.
898
01:17:37,176 --> 01:17:41,169
He would disappear somewhere, or he
would go to the fridge and get a beer
899
01:17:41,247 --> 01:17:43,613
or he'd go for a walk up the drive
to the pub.
900
01:17:44,583 --> 01:17:48,019
I just knew the cycle. It would be
my dad would go to treatment,
901
01:17:48,087 --> 01:17:50,681
he'd stay sober
for maybe 60 days, tops.
902
01:17:50,756 --> 01:17:53,054
And then he would start
messing around with pills.
903
01:17:53,125 --> 01:17:55,992
And then
he would do that for a while,
904
01:17:56,061 --> 01:17:58,621
and then he would just
go right to the drink.
905
01:17:58,697 --> 01:18:01,359
And then it would get really bad,
then he'd go back to treatment.
906
01:18:01,934 --> 01:18:05,734
I don't actually believe
that he was ever fully sober.
907
01:18:06,405 --> 01:18:09,101
He was just drunk.
He was just not a dad.
908
01:18:09,842 --> 01:18:12,140
He was drunk
and he was fucked up all the time.
909
01:18:12,244 --> 01:18:14,712
I came home from school
every single day
910
01:18:14,780 --> 01:18:16,975
to see him lying on a couch,
911
01:18:17,049 --> 01:18:19,381
drooling with a pill bottle
on the floor
912
01:18:19,451 --> 01:18:23,615
or a vodka bottle on the floor,
or, you know...
913
01:18:25,858 --> 01:18:28,793
Opening up the oven
to make a cake with my friends
914
01:18:29,194 --> 01:18:32,823
to find that that's where my dad
hid the bottles of alcohol.
915
01:18:33,032 --> 01:18:35,796
One thing about drugs and alcohol,
they make you lie.
916
01:18:35,868 --> 01:18:38,393
You start lying
and covering up your tracks,
917
01:18:38,470 --> 01:18:40,301
and hiding things and fucking...
918
01:18:40,372 --> 01:18:42,602
I used to wait for the guy
to drop my drugs off,
919
01:18:42,675 --> 01:18:45,974
and I'd be running in and out
of the fucking house all day long,
920
01:18:46,312 --> 01:18:50,510
thinking that nobody would suspect I
was waiting for dope to be delivered.
921
01:18:59,491 --> 01:19:02,016
When The Osbournes first started,
922
01:19:02,094 --> 01:19:06,588
he was probably
at his worst peak of drinking.
923
01:19:06,665 --> 01:19:08,963
I mean, like, pretty much
going through the worst times.
924
01:19:09,902 --> 01:19:13,133
That you pick up the fucking
phone and call in.
925
01:19:13,205 --> 01:19:17,107
That was the worst thing I'd ever do.
They were never off the phone.
926
01:19:17,676 --> 01:19:20,770
Sometimes, you know, he'd be popping
pills from numerous, different
927
01:19:21,413 --> 01:19:24,348
disgusting doctors that would give
him whatever he wanted.
928
01:19:25,684 --> 01:19:27,083
I don't know, sometimes
he'd be on downers,
929
01:19:27,152 --> 01:19:30,588
sometimes he'd be on uppers.
So, that obviously
930
01:19:30,656 --> 01:19:34,353
will make anyone behave
a little bit off and scary sometimes.
931
01:19:34,760 --> 01:19:37,388
Why do we have three brown fingers?
932
01:19:39,164 --> 01:19:40,461
Three brown...
933
01:19:44,703 --> 01:19:47,501
Because I put brown dye in my hair.
934
01:19:48,240 --> 01:19:50,868
I think it was affecting...
Well, it was affecting his speech.
935
01:19:51,010 --> 01:19:53,035
It was affecting the way he walked.
936
01:19:53,112 --> 01:19:58,379
It was affecting the way he stood.
It was just... Everything.
937
01:19:59,118 --> 01:20:03,077
Part of his fame
came from how he looked.
938
01:20:03,155 --> 01:20:05,350
People thought it was funny,
thought it was cute.
939
01:20:07,593 --> 01:20:09,584
What the fuck's this shit?
940
01:20:11,530 --> 01:20:13,998
This is not allowed.
What's happened to it?
941
01:20:14,433 --> 01:20:17,368
How do you get this fucking thing on?
942
01:20:17,436 --> 01:20:20,963
What they thought was funny
was kind of sad, because
943
01:20:21,040 --> 01:20:25,238
he was actually destroying himself
and also destroying the family.
944
01:20:25,644 --> 01:20:30,138
There's hours and hours of footage
of stuff that just couldn't show.
945
01:20:31,083 --> 01:20:33,677
It was too real.
946
01:20:34,687 --> 01:20:37,485
Granted, yes, The Osbournes
was not scripted,
947
01:20:37,556 --> 01:20:40,389
but people don't wanna sit home
on MTV
948
01:20:40,492 --> 01:20:45,225
and watch alcoholism
tear apart a family.
949
01:20:46,699 --> 01:20:48,929
When we first started filming
The Osbournes,
950
01:20:49,001 --> 01:20:50,662
it was no secret my dad did drugs.
951
01:20:50,736 --> 01:20:53,933
He was an addict, but he was kind of
a functioning addict.
952
01:20:55,174 --> 01:20:57,335
But when my mum was diagnosed
with cancer,
953
01:20:57,409 --> 01:20:59,138
it very quickly...
954
01:21:00,679 --> 01:21:03,546
He was out of control.
955
01:21:04,450 --> 01:21:06,441
Out of control.
956
01:21:06,852 --> 01:21:10,015
He never came out of his room,
that we called the bunker.
957
01:21:10,089 --> 01:21:13,217
He couldn't stand up straight.
He couldn't walk properly.
958
01:21:14,093 --> 01:21:17,324
He couldn't hear.
He shook, he stuttered.
959
01:21:18,931 --> 01:21:22,662
Everything that you could imagine.
I mean, he was a zombie.
960
01:21:26,305 --> 01:21:28,364
I was taking drugs, too.
961
01:21:28,440 --> 01:21:31,307
During that time when my mum
had cancer, I was using, too.
962
01:21:31,376 --> 01:21:33,810
I got through that experience
963
01:21:33,879 --> 01:21:36,439
by hiding my emotions
through using drugs.
964
01:21:37,750 --> 01:21:41,117
I'll get you a bottle of water,
just sip on the water.
965
01:21:41,253 --> 01:21:43,153
I've got that interview on the phone.
966
01:21:43,222 --> 01:21:45,656
- On the phone?
- She's holding on.
967
01:21:45,724 --> 01:21:48,318
I had to hang up
'cause I was throwing up.
968
01:21:49,528 --> 01:21:52,326
Let me get a bottle of water.
969
01:21:52,731 --> 01:21:54,426
Jack and Kelly started using
970
01:21:54,500 --> 01:21:58,561
and doing drugs and alcohol
and whatever at a very early age.
971
01:22:01,774 --> 01:22:03,571
Things started happening
in my family.
972
01:22:04,443 --> 01:22:08,140
I mean, it was my son Jack
who got sober first.
973
01:22:08,680 --> 01:22:13,447
When I'd got sober,
we sat at a table and he's like,
974
01:22:13,519 --> 01:22:16,977
"I threw away all my pain medication
the other day."
975
01:22:17,055 --> 01:22:19,853
And I was like, "Well, why did you
have them in the first place?"
976
01:22:19,925 --> 01:22:22,894
And this whole argument erupted.
977
01:22:23,695 --> 01:22:29,395
And one excuse my dad always went to
when he was getting messed up was,
978
01:22:29,468 --> 01:22:31,561
"You guys never needed for anything.
979
01:22:31,837 --> 01:22:34,533
"Whatever you wanted, I gave you."
980
01:22:35,307 --> 01:22:38,606
I said to him, "What the fuck are you
always pissed off at me for?
981
01:22:39,077 --> 01:22:41,773
"You've never, ever wanted
for a fucking thing
982
01:22:41,847 --> 01:22:44,372
"from the moment
you took your first breath."
983
01:22:44,449 --> 01:22:47,577
And he went,
"Oh, yeah? What about a father?"
984
01:22:47,653 --> 01:22:49,314
And that hit me straight
between the eyes,
985
01:22:49,388 --> 01:22:52,846
like fucking David and Goliath,
when he gets that slingshot.
986
01:22:52,925 --> 01:22:56,520
It knocked me on my eyes.
I'm just, "Fucking hell!"
987
01:22:58,997 --> 01:23:01,261
I honestly think that
988
01:23:01,333 --> 01:23:05,895
the turning point for Ozzy
was Jack's sobriety.
989
01:23:06,471 --> 01:23:10,532
Jack learned
how to deal with life sober.
990
01:23:10,809 --> 01:23:14,404
And I think it shamed Ozzy
that he couldn't do it.
991
01:23:14,479 --> 01:23:17,505
He could never get it,
and that's what was
992
01:23:17,583 --> 01:23:20,313
his big turning point in life.
993
01:23:26,592 --> 01:23:29,425
That was the start of the journey
of him being sober.
994
01:23:29,561 --> 01:23:31,791
The evidence proves the fact,
'cause he hasn't drunk
995
01:23:31,864 --> 01:23:34,389
or abused for over five years now.
996
01:23:35,300 --> 01:23:37,860
I'm clean, I'm sober. I don't smoke.
I don't do drugs.
997
01:23:37,936 --> 01:23:41,235
I don't do alcohol any more.
I haven't done for a long while
998
01:23:41,306 --> 01:23:44,605
but I like being sober,
I like being straight.
999
01:23:44,676 --> 01:23:46,906
I don't want to smoke
tobacco any more.
1000
01:23:48,313 --> 01:23:50,372
He blew us all away.
I mean, we didn't...
1001
01:23:50,449 --> 01:23:53,350
None of us ever thought he'd maintain
it for as long as he has now.
1002
01:23:53,452 --> 01:23:56,319
And it really seems like
he has come through the other side.
1003
01:23:57,422 --> 01:23:59,617
When you really let go, it's like
1004
01:23:59,691 --> 01:24:03,752
somebody takes a chain off you
and you just go...
1005
01:24:03,829 --> 01:24:07,822
When you're involved in it,
you don't realise
1006
01:24:07,900 --> 01:24:10,892
how much hard work it is
to be a fucking alcoholic.
1007
01:24:12,070 --> 01:24:15,904
But it's when you get fed up
with you behaving the way you do.
1008
01:24:15,974 --> 01:24:18,340
I mean, there's sometimes when I go,
"Is this what it's all about?
1009
01:24:18,410 --> 01:24:20,571
"I want to get fucked up,"
but I don't.
1010
01:24:21,480 --> 01:24:23,539
His face is alive.
1011
01:24:23,615 --> 01:24:29,554
And he stands up straight and he
walks tall and with confidence,
1012
01:24:29,621 --> 01:24:31,816
and he's not ashamed of himself
any more.
1013
01:24:31,890 --> 01:24:36,020
He has nothing to hide any more and
he has nothing to lie about any more.
1014
01:24:36,094 --> 01:24:39,825
Which makes him...
1015
01:24:40,198 --> 01:24:42,291
I think he's really proud of himself.
1016
01:24:43,335 --> 01:24:47,066
I think it's the first time
he's proud of himself.
1017
01:24:48,340 --> 01:24:51,400
- Do you like it, being clean?
- I like it, yeah.
1018
01:24:51,677 --> 01:24:56,478
With a bit of time, you start to go,
1019
01:24:56,548 --> 01:24:58,607
"What did I ever think about
that was fun?
1020
01:24:58,684 --> 01:25:00,777
"What was fucking fun about
waking up in a police station
1021
01:25:00,852 --> 01:25:02,444
"or in the back
of a fucking police car?"
1022
01:25:02,754 --> 01:25:05,780
I have a laugh now.
I mean, naturally.
1023
01:25:08,160 --> 01:25:10,685
If I could sprinkle this
on the fucking world,
1024
01:25:10,762 --> 01:25:12,923
it would be a much better place.
1025
01:25:18,537 --> 01:25:23,031
I spent 19 years of my life praying
that I would wake up one day
1026
01:25:23,108 --> 01:25:25,167
and have the father I have today.
1027
01:25:25,243 --> 01:25:28,235
And most people can't turn around and
say that that has happened for them,
1028
01:25:28,313 --> 01:25:31,111
and it happened for me and I love...
1029
01:25:31,416 --> 01:25:35,648
I am so proud of him,
because I know how hard it is.
1030
01:25:35,854 --> 01:25:38,948
I think it's fucking fantastic.
Our relationship has improved a lot
1031
01:25:39,024 --> 01:25:40,753
over the last few years
since he has been sober.
1032
01:25:40,826 --> 01:25:44,660
I'm actually quite amazed
at how fit he is
1033
01:25:44,730 --> 01:25:47,164
and how more astute he is
than he was.
1034
01:25:47,232 --> 01:25:50,463
He has changed a lot.
1035
01:25:51,069 --> 01:25:53,264
He's lost a lot of weight.
1036
01:25:53,338 --> 01:25:56,705
He's very health conscious,
he works out nearly every day.
1037
01:25:56,808 --> 01:25:59,208
Ozzy's grown up, you know.
1038
01:25:59,277 --> 01:26:03,270
It took him longer than most people,
but he's got there. He's here.
1039
01:26:03,648 --> 01:26:07,641
He works really hard for his sobriety
and he deserves it.
1040
01:26:09,621 --> 01:26:11,646
Sobriety's totally changed him
as a person.
1041
01:26:12,858 --> 01:26:15,884
He just seems like he's
a lot more at ease with himself.
1042
01:26:15,961 --> 01:26:18,987
You know, whereas before,
he was just all over the place.
1043
01:26:19,064 --> 01:26:25,025
Now he'll just sit with his
headphones on quietly, just drawing.
1044
01:26:30,842 --> 01:26:35,370
It's not art.
I do it for therapeutic reasons.
1045
01:26:36,314 --> 01:26:40,648
I just find it stops my head of
hand grenades going off, you know,
1046
01:26:41,420 --> 01:26:45,652
because it slows my head down.
I've always worried...
1047
01:26:45,824 --> 01:26:48,258
Sometimes, I worry
'cause I got nothing to worry about.
1048
01:26:48,326 --> 01:26:50,487
That's how bad it is, sometimes.
1049
01:27:03,041 --> 01:27:06,602
I don't go to bed at night thinking,
"I shouldn't have painted that,
1050
01:27:06,678 --> 01:27:08,441
"because people are going
to get pissed off at me
1051
01:27:08,513 --> 01:27:10,538
"and they ain't going
to buy another painting."
1052
01:27:11,917 --> 01:27:16,980
Out of all this chaos and all this
anxiety I live in, all this fear,
1053
01:27:17,055 --> 01:27:20,821
it stops everything in its tracks,
and it's mine.
1054
01:27:20,892 --> 01:27:24,589
And so when you ask me
a question about it, I have no answer
1055
01:27:24,663 --> 01:27:27,154
because I don't think of anything
more than it's mine.
1056
01:27:36,575 --> 01:27:40,409
He really talked for years about
wanting to have his driving licence
1057
01:27:40,479 --> 01:27:42,674
and never thought he could do it.
1058
01:27:42,747 --> 01:27:47,184
He wouldn't have been able to do it
in his drinking days, obviously,
1059
01:27:47,319 --> 01:27:50,311
but since he had become sober
he had talked about it quite a lot,
1060
01:27:50,388 --> 01:27:52,686
about getting his driving licence.
1061
01:28:01,867 --> 01:28:05,894
I'm getting my licence so I don't
feel like a terminal prisoner,
1062
01:28:05,971 --> 01:28:09,532
meaning that when everybody
leaves the house, I'm stuck.
1063
01:28:10,408 --> 01:28:12,899
I can't go anywhere.
1064
01:28:15,113 --> 01:28:17,604
It's a way of feeling free.
1065
01:28:21,286 --> 01:28:25,313
I'm dependent on everybody
to drive me wherever I want to go,
1066
01:28:25,490 --> 01:28:28,152
that's the reason why I want
to get a driving licence right there.
1067
01:28:28,260 --> 01:28:30,421
I'm not intoxicated,
I don't want people to say...
1068
01:28:30,495 --> 01:28:33,157
I want a part of my life
where I can say, "I'm in the car,
1069
01:28:33,398 --> 01:28:35,730
"driving my car where I want to go."
1070
01:28:35,800 --> 01:28:37,392
Not sitting and going...
1071
01:28:37,469 --> 01:28:39,767
Having an argument
with someone over some shit.
1072
01:28:39,838 --> 01:28:44,172
I just want to get the freedom
of being able to drive with my head.
1073
01:28:45,911 --> 01:28:48,436
When I first got successful, right,
1074
01:28:48,613 --> 01:28:52,208
I bought the guns,
the fucking knives,
1075
01:28:52,617 --> 01:28:54,847
the fucking archery sets,
the motorcycles,
1076
01:28:54,953 --> 01:28:59,390
all the things that I felt
I couldn't afford to have
1077
01:28:59,524 --> 01:29:01,992
when I was younger, right?
1078
01:29:02,594 --> 01:29:04,494
So, I got all of that
out of my system.
1079
01:29:04,563 --> 01:29:07,396
Now, I've always really
wanted to drive,
1080
01:29:07,465 --> 01:29:10,491
but I've been too fucked up
to get that way.
1081
01:29:10,769 --> 01:29:14,637
So, I'm fulfilling all the things
that I wanted to do.
1082
01:29:15,674 --> 01:29:18,370
I've had a one-of-a-kind life,
you know.
1083
01:29:19,077 --> 01:29:22,171
I've had a lot
of ups and downs in my life.
1084
01:29:22,547 --> 01:29:25,914
People say if I could change
any one thing, what would I change?
1085
01:29:26,084 --> 01:29:30,748
I don't know. I think
everything's there for a reason.
1086
01:29:31,856 --> 01:29:33,949
And life's a learning process.
1087
01:29:35,727 --> 01:29:39,185
I don't know what
the fucking secret of life is,
1088
01:29:39,264 --> 01:29:43,291
I don't know what the thing is.
I've had a good run, you know.
1089
01:29:44,002 --> 01:29:47,267
I love my wife, I love my family.
1090
01:29:47,606 --> 01:29:51,201
I'm beginning to love me
a lot more than I ever used to.
1091
01:29:52,844 --> 01:29:56,473
First person you should always
learn to love is yourself.
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